December 31, 2013

Two Thousand Thirteen

In a few minutes, the fireworks will go off, a sign that a year just passed by again.

I know this sounds cliche but where did the time go? It doesn't feel like a year. That's 12 months. 365 days. But it sure felt like a breeze to me.

A lot had happened in 2013, both good and bad. Just like every other year. However, I have a few major things that happened in my life this year that made me change completely. If you asked me at the beginning of this year, I would never thought I'd be here right now. 

For starter, I am at the end of my final semester before I go for my internship. Who would have thought I survived all those hardships through out my final projects and thesis? I have also became much closer to my friends this year. Some of them turned out to be really good people and can be trusted but most of them turned out to be exactly how I predicted them to be. Not in a good way. I tried to stop thinking negatively and tried to open up to people. After all, what's life without taking chances right? But like I said, most of the people I took my chances with turned out to be how I expected them to be. I'm not complaining though because I know these people brought lessons into my life and I learned that these people are not worth my time at all. I don't have time for negativity anyway.

I went through a heartache, a massive one at that. But it made me realize I am stronger than I thought I was to survive it on my own, without holding on to it too long because I taught myself to just let it go and focus on the future instead of being stuck on the past. I also learned that I don't need to depend on anyone for my own happiness. I can totally survive by my own and I can definitely do things on my own.

I met a lot of new people this year too, some gave good impacts, some bad. Yea, shocker. 
But among all these people I met this year, one of them gave such a big impact to my life.  I have no idea how and why but the the first time I met this person, I automatically knew that he will be a significant part of my life. Not necessarily romantically, but generally. He completely changed my perspective on life and my inner self. He believes in what I'm passionate about, he supports what I like to do and he motivates me by sharing advices, life experiences and he introduced opportunities for me to improve myself and my life. To be honest, I have never met someone who is as positive as he is, as determined as he is, who believes in themselves, who brings out the best out of other people as he does. He basically made me realize the existence of all the good things in life that were clouded by my negative thoughts and judgements all this while. He recommends books for me to read, tv series for me to watch, suggests solutions to my problems and motivates me in the meanest way possible (but it worked. Haha) when I was about to give up. He cracks lame jokes sometimes too but hey, that's part of the charm, right? Haha. Anyway, I am grateful to have met someone like him who made me realize that I am so much better than what I thought I can be and that I can push myself to the fullest potential. I doubt he is reading this but if you are, I would like to thank you for affecting my life in such positive way :)

Because of the fact that I have changed my perspective on life completely, I found myself to be really positive about other things in life too. I have been very discipline with my health and eating habits, I've been consistent with my goals and striving to achieve them, I learned to avoid the people who bring me down constantly, I learned to take chances and not be afraid of risks and mistakes, I learned more about myself this year than I did in the previous years of my life, I taught myself to stop being a shopaholic and most important of all, I have improved my relationship with Allah and my family. Not saying I had bad relationships with them before, I am so close to my family but I felt like I wasn't good enough. Now I am still improving but Alhamdullilah, I can see that I'm on the right path in getting there. I am also trying to improve the relationships I have with everyone I know. In fact, I'm absolutely sure that I have improved my relationship with one of my best friend and my number one reader (as she always say), Putt. I have become so much closer to her this year and I enjoy being around her and talking to her. She's a gem, enough said. Oh and I know you're reading this. So hiiiiiii, baby girl! *waves*

Last year I didn't have any resolutions. My reason was that I wouldn't keep up even if I had one. But 2014 is a year of change for me. I want 2014 to be a life changing year for myself. I want to change to be a better person, inside and out. I have so many resolutions in my mind right now but I will just include some of the important ones that pops into my head.

First, I would like to stop complaining. Just about anything. I don't want to complain. Instead, I would like to take control of my own mind and think of all the obstacles and problems in the most positive way possible. 

Secondly, I want to cut off all the negative people from my life. Once and for all. The ones who always condemn me. The ones who are always being sarcastic about the things I'm passionate about like my YouTube channel or the motivational videos I always watch. I will only acknowledge people who support me and bring the positive vibes into my life.

I also would like to start saving instead of spending. After all, as Robert Kiyosaki once tweeted, "The wealthy buy luxuries last, while the poor and middle-class tend to buy luxuries first". No more drug stores or Sephora, no more new bags, no more shoes, no more accessories unless it's a necessity (I doubt a new lipstick is a necessity but whatever. Haha). 

Lastly, I hope the motivation for me to keep healthy and eat clean won't die down. I want to be active and be healthy through out my life starting from now. Hopefully!

Okay so those are my 2014 resolutions. Well, some of them. Do you have any resolutions for 2014? Do share your resolutions with me in the comment section, so we all can motivate each other to focus and achieve our goals for this new year!

Happy New Year, everyone!


Puteri Panda said...

Happy New Year 2014, Ayeen. :)

Ayeen Kadir said...

Puteri, Happy New Year to you too! x