Hello, Real Life!

When you were in primary school or high school, have you ever expected your life is going to turn out exactly like how it has turned out right now? Is the life you're living now the life you expected to live from the start? Is the life you're living now is the life you wished to live since you were younger?

I'm pretty sure 99% of the answers will be a big fat NO.

As I grew older, I realized that not everything will turn out as planned or as expected. Planning and dreaming about the future seems so easy to do but to make everything you dreamed of actually happen.... Not so. That's why I have given up planning the future so precisely because I know it won't turn out like I want it to be. I just focus on my goals now and aiming to achieve it instead of having everything mapped out in front of me. After all, life is an adventure. It's good to have life goals and strategies to achieve them but you can't really control everything and everyone in your life.

I turned 23 last Saturday and man, do I feel old. It might not sound as bad to some of you but to me, 23 is an age where I can announce to the world that I am officially "old". What more when I have actually started working. That certainly make me feel older. Talking about work, it had never crossed my mind that I will be in the real estate industry. Let me repeat. N-E-V-E-R. As a little kid, I never really dreamed of being the doctor, the engineer or the lawyer like most of kids my age wanted to be. Believe it or not, every time people ask me what I want to be when I grow up. My answer was "A Cashier". Reason? Simply because I love plastics and paper bags. Not to mention the cash counters/machines. I've always loved and dreamed to be a cashier at any stores so I can play with the cash machines. My love for the cash machine was so true that my Dad bought me a white and pink Barbie cash machine so I can play and live my 'dream' to be a cashier. LOL. I sure dream big, don't I? Hahahaha.

Okay you can stop laughing at me now.

As I grew, my dream career changed. When I was in the first half of my high school years, I was determined and sure that I want to be a teacher. I want to teach English, just like my Mom. That was when I started writing on my blog because I know it will improve my English if I start writing. That was also when I discovered that I really love writing. I started my own "book". Not like a proper book for everyone to read, of course. Just something I write, sort of like a novel but a personal one. No, it's not a journal or a diary or anything like that, in case you're wondering. I didn't write about my life but I imagine being someone else and created the whole story myself. I really fell in love with writing because it's something that I know I'm in control and I'm in charge of the whole story line. I can write whatever crap that comes to mind and it's okay because I invented the story. I am in charge of the characters. I am the story.

But then after a while, I thought that I don't want to be a teacher because it's hard to have that big responsibility of teaching people's children and making sure the knowledge you pass on to the students are the best you can give. Being a teacher is hard work, believe me. Most people I know look at teachers like they are nothing but I have lived with a teacher all my life. Trust me when I say, they are the ones who always get underestimation from people. To me, being a teacher is the sincerest job anyone could be and I will always respect teachers as without teachers, we wouldn't even know how to count to 10, we wouldn't even know how to spell "Apple" for the first time and we wouldn't even know the history. I have seen my Mom get upset and worried whenever her students did very bad in their tests. I have also seen my Mom got so excited to think of something for her students to learn a different way by teaching them outdoors. There was this one time, she asked her students to bring their own food and drinks from home for a 'study picnic' under the tree at school. I told her, "how come my teachers have never done this for us when I was in primary?". Seeing my Mom being a teacher made me want to be a teacher too, so that was why I applied to be a French language teacher after I graduated high school. I did well for the interview but my heart told me that wasn't it. That career is not the path I want to take. So I accepted the offer from University of Malaya instead, to do a one year foundation in Built Environment. At that time, I knew it was a risk to take because if I fail, I would have to start all over again from Diploma and I will be behind everyone else in my batch. Also, it wasn't like I know what "Built Environment" means at that time. I just went with the flow. After I learned what Built Environment is all about, I was aiming to be an Architect. I couldn't be so sure because I was in the University, so I thought... "hey, I'm 18 and I'm in college. I don't think I will every change my ambition again." Well, guess what?

It changed. Again.

After passing my Foundation, Alhamdulillah, I got accepted in University of Malaya for my Degree as well. During my first year in Real Estate, I realized I gravitate more towards a few subjects like Law, Marketing & Sales. I hated (and still hate) subjects like Valuation, Investments or Construction.

Fast forward four years, I am now done with my Degree in Real Estate and I am working now. In Agency & Marketing Department at a very awesome Real Estate company and I couldn't be more blessed. I am so happy and honored to be offered a job there even before I finished my internship. All those 4 years of Degree are definitely worth it because look at where it got me. I am 23 and turning into a new chapter in my life. I know this part of my life will be the hardest because this is when I have the responsibility towards my own life, my work, my achievements and a lot of other things too. This is the part where my parents can let go of me financially and in other aspects too for me to think what's best for myself and not be too dependant on them. Another step towards real life and I'm going to be honest with you, I'm nervous and scared as hell because this is the beginning of my real life.

Something that my Mom said on the night of my birthday made me cry :

"Please stop growing up, baby. Stop here. I don't want you to grow up anymore."

I just hugged her and told her that as much as I don't want to grow up-too, this is the time when I need to grow up and learn. It's time for me to take care of her and Dad instead of the other way around.

So, guys. Wish me luck on this new journey of mine.

Bismilahirrahmannirahim.

2014 Birthday Wish List

So, it's August. Which only means one thing.

MY BIRTHDAY!

Okay, maybe August is not only about my birthday. But other things too but whatever. This post will be focusing on my birthday anyway. Hehe.

First of all, I would like to let you guys know that I'm doing this because I was forced to do it. I didn't want to post any wish list this year but someone wants me to make her life easier, so she demanded me to post it. Her reason being - "we've been friends since third grade and I have never missed out a birthday. Now we're 23 so I'm running out of ideas on what to give you for your birthday."

Oh well. Here it is, Fara. I hope you'll get me the most expensive item on this list because I posted this just for your convenience (and everyone else who wants to give me birthday presents too. Haha).

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER :

1) Canon EOS 600D/650D

2) iPhone 5S in Black

3) Clarisonic Mia 2 in Pink

4) Frends Layla Headphones in Rose Gold

5) Kate Spade Cherry Lane Darla in Pink or Tropic Blue / Any Ted Baker, Michael Kors or Tory Burch Card Holder 

6) A pair of soft box lighting

7) Revenge by NYX Palette

8) Any YSL lipsticks

9) Marc Jacobs' Lipstick in Seduce Me

10 ) Laura Mercier Tinted Moisturizer / Tarte Amazonian Clay Foundation

11) Sigma Bunny Travel Kit

Okay Fara. I'll be waiting for your present this year. 

*evil laugh*

The Story of My YouTube Channel

I started my YouTube Channel in September 2011. That's like, almost 3 years ago. Not as long as my beloved blog, of course but you know, I thought I was born to write on my blog.

But then I found YouTube. 

I know I shouldn't be bias or anything but since I started my YouTube channel, I've been thinking that maybe this is what I was born to do.

Youtube.

Making videos about beauty, fashion and other random things.

I love and enjoy making videos. It's a lot of work but I never seem to mind it. Hours and hassle of setting up the camera and props to film the video, hours and hours spent on editing the video, brainstorming on what videos I should do next... you know, these things make me happy though it is a whole lot of hard work. Sometimes I even spend 48 hours to edit a video that is less than 8 minutes long just to make it right and perfect. The sleepless nights I spent because I couldn't get enough of editing are so so so worth it when you guys enjoyed the videos I made. I don't know how to explain it, but it really feels like it's my love. My passion. Like I can't get enough of filming and editing.

If I have a choice, I would definitely film and edit all day every day but of course, my channel is not that stable for me to quit my job and do this full time just yet. Maybe one day, who knows but for now, I'm just enjoying all that I can. What irritates me the most about being a Malaysian Youtuber/beauty guru is that Malaysia is not really big on YouTubers. I mean of course there are a few YouTubers that are known internationally like Jinny Boy but there's no beauty guru community here in Malaysia like they have in The States, especially LA. Not that I know of anyway. I know there are some beauty bloggers community and such but I have never heard of Malaysian beauty YouTubers community here in Malaysia. If you know any community of that sort, let me know so I can check them out.

Sometimes when I watch some of my favorite beauty gurus doing this full time, I feel like packing my bags and fly to LA to do this full time too because I really really love doing this. I mean, I like my job but if I were to be given a choice, I would definitely choose something I'm more passionate about which are beauty and fashion. I started my channel out of interest, not for the benefits like free stuff and money, while I accepted my current job because I like real estate but I like money more. You see the difference? If I were to do this YouTube thing full time, I would be doing it because I love it more than I love the money but of course, doing something you really love and getting paid for it sounds a whole lot better. But still... you get what I mean.

Anyway, of course when I ventured myself in making videos on YouTube, not everything is fun and games all the time. This is when I know who is there to support me and who's not. I got insulted a lot, being in the YouTube scene. Blogging is not as bad because people can't really see you. They don't see you talking, they don't really know how you act and talk, they only see your writings. Your words. So they don't really have any strong foundation to insult you. All the years that I blogged, I've never received any strong insults but when I started YouTube.... man, the insults and negative comments really got to my head. I almost gave up, I almost deleted my channel. But then I realized everything you do in this world, there will always be people who criticize you and hate what you do, the way you talk and the way you act. You can't please everyone. You can't always impress everyone. So the best thing to do is just be yourself and do what you feel is right for you. If people like you and what you do, then you know they like you for who you are. Not because you are doing what they want you to do. I even cried some days reading negative comments back in the day. I even had friends who were always making fun of my videos. I always laugh a long with them and acted like it didn't hurt my feelings. But it did. To have your own friends making fun of what you like doing? Can I really call them my friends then? I started to stay away from these people because I know they will only give negative vibes into my life if I keep them close to me. And guess what?

That. Was. The. Best. Decision. I've. Ever. Made. In. My. Life.

After much support and positive motivation by a few people in my life and from some of you as well, I decided to let my channel grow. And here it is, 3 years later, I'm still making videos! Alhamdulillah, my channel has definitely grow. Slowly but surely. I'm so glad I kept going instead of giving up when things got difficult. I have received a lot of opportunities and one of the best ones was of course, being a part of Style Haul. But that's not even the best part yet. The best part is to have you guys. All of you who watch my videos, subscribing to me, leaving me comments so I can improve and keep going in the future. You all are truly a blessing for me. I like knowing that I made someone's day when I upload a new video or the fact that my videos motivate some of you in some weird ways. I am happy to receive emails and comments saying that I changed their lives and I inspired them. To think of me being an inspiration is beyond this world. I would never have thought I would make an impact in anyone's life. I also had encountered a situation where a Mom approached me asking whether I can come meet her 4 year old daughter because her daughter watches my videos repeatedly, every single day. She even imitates what I do in my videos. I was shocked hearing this of course, exciting but scary at the same time. Scary  in the sense that it made me think back of what I did in all my videos. This is a 4 year old child we're talking about, I wouldn't want to be a bad influence to anyone, especially little kids.

So I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you. Without you guys' support, I won't even be making videos right now. Because of you and the few people in my life who support me made me realized I don't have to please everyone. I just have to be myself and do what I like doing with some effort, everything will turn out well. I also learned that all those negative comments and insults people throw at me are nothing. I shouldn't be affected by them and I should take that as a challenge or turn them into something positive that I can use to further motivate myself.

So, THANK YOU.
*virtual hugs*

Channing Tatum, Break Up, I have a crush?! TMI TAG!

I had fun answering all these random questions & hope you guys enjoyed watching it too!

QUESTIONS!

1: What are you wearing?

2: Ever been in love?

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?

4: How tall are you?

5: How much do you weigh?

6: Any tattoos?

7: Any piercings?

8: OTP?

9: Favorite show?

10: Favorite bands?

11: Something you miss? .

12: Favorite song?

13: How old are you?

14: Zodiac sign?

15: Quality you look for in a partner?

16: Favorite Quote?

17: Favorite actor?

18: Favorite color?

19: Loud music or soft?

20: Where do you go when you're sad?

21: How long does it take you to shower?

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

23: Ever been in a physical fight?

24: Turn on?

25: Turn off?

26: The reason I joined Youtube?

27: Fears?

28: Last thing that made you cry?

29: Last time you said you loved someone?

30: Meaning behind your YouTube Name?

31: Last book you read?

32: The book you're currently reading?

33: Last show you watched?

34: Last person you talked to?

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

36: Favorite food?

37: Place you want to visit?

38: Last place you were?

39: Do you have a crush?

40: Last time you kissed someone?

41: Last time you were insulted?

42: Favorite flavor of sweet?

43: What instruments do you play??

44: Favorite piece of jewelery?

45: Last sport you played?

46: Last song you sang?

47: Favorite chat up line?

48: Have you ever used it?

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?

50: Who should answer these questions next?

♥ Watch my previous video if you haven't!:

http://youtu.be/Mjxwh_ZhR18?list=UUekeOe15GaOwm5k8XBuOuDA

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xo, Ayeen K.

It's been 2 months since I last blogged?!

It feels a whooooooole lot longer though.

But phewwwww finally, I can write on this blog again and it feels so so so so good. If you miss this blog (let's face it, you all actually miss me, I know. Haha), let me enlighten you to what actually happened and why my domain, ayeenkadir.com is not accessible. And why it's now ayeenkadir.blogspot.com.

In the month of April every year, I will be reminded by an email by the provider of my domain to pay for my yearly subscription. This year though, I started working and yes, you guessed it. I forgot to pay the subscription because I was too caught up with my work. Also, I didn't receive the bloody reminder email this year! So it's not entirely my fault. Right?

 I know you guys are probably wondering why didn't I just set the payment to auto, so they can just charge the credit card automatically when it expires every year? 

Well, you guys got to cut me some slacks because when I first started my blog, I was just a child. Okay, not exactly a child. But I was 17. I was in high school. So I secretly charged the payment to my Dad's credit card without consulting him first. To avoid him nagging me about "how he doesn't grow money on trees and how the credit card he gave me is for emergencies ONLY", I thought I'd try it out just for one year. After one year though, my Dad seems to be okay with it seeing how I am really passionate towards blogging and how serious I was/am with it. When I said "he seems to be okay with it", I meant he didn't seem to mind when there is my domain provider's name on the credit card bill every year and he didn't complain or nag about it. So I assumed he didn't mind. After that, I didn't really bother to change the manual payment to auto and boy, that's the biggest regret in my 23 years of life. Now I am domain-less and I have to pay almost RM900 to get the domain and all its content back. I had the hardest time to decide what I want to do. 

To pay the RM900 and get it over with so I can start writing on my blog again 

or...

To terminate that domain from my provider and change my provider which will costs me cheaper than RM900

So I decided I will use this .blogspot for the mean time, while I solve this problem. Maybe I will change to a different provider. So if you're a blogger, do give me some recommendations of good and user-friendly provider for me to consider!

On a totally different note, I have a lot to tell you guys, a lot of ootd pictures to post here, a lot of working experiences I want to share and just about everything! Ahhhh I cannot wait to start back on blogging!!! Who's excited????!

No one?

Okay... maybe it's just me.

Two Thousand Thirteen

In a few minutes, the fireworks will go off, a sign that a year just passed by again.

I know this sounds cliche but where did the time go? It doesn't feel like a year. That's 12 months. 365 days. But it sure felt like a breeze to me.

A lot had happened in 2013, both good and bad. Just like every other year. However, I have a few major things that happened in my life this year that made me change completely. If you asked me at the beginning of this year, I would never thought I'd be here right now. 

For starter, I am at the end of my final semester before I go for my internship. Who would have thought I survived all those hardships through out my final projects and thesis? I have also became much closer to my friends this year. Some of them turned out to be really good people and can be trusted but most of them turned out to be exactly how I predicted them to be. Not in a good way. I tried to stop thinking negatively and tried to open up to people. After all, what's life without taking chances right? But like I said, most of the people I took my chances with turned out to be how I expected them to be. I'm not complaining though because I know these people brought lessons into my life and I learned that these people are not worth my time at all. I don't have time for negativity anyway.

I went through a heartache, a massive one at that. But it made me realize I am stronger than I thought I was to survive it on my own, without holding on to it too long because I taught myself to just let it go and focus on the future instead of being stuck on the past. I also learned that I don't need to depend on anyone for my own happiness. I can totally survive by my own and I can definitely do things on my own.

I met a lot of new people this year too, some gave good impacts, some bad. Yea, shocker. 

But among all these people I met this year, one of them gave such a big impact to my life.  I have no idea how and why but the the first time I met this person, I automatically knew that he will be a significant part of my life. Not necessarily romantically, but generally. He completely changed my perspective on life and my inner self. He believes in what I'm passionate about, he supports what I like to do and he motivates me by sharing advices, life experiences and he introduced opportunities for me to improve myself and my life. To be honest, I have never met someone who is as positive as he is, as determined as he is, who believes in themselves, who brings out the best out of other people as he does. He basically made me realize the existence of all the good things in life that were clouded by my negative thoughts and judgements all this while. He recommends books for me to read, tv series for me to watch, suggests solutions to my problems and motivates me in the meanest way possible (but it worked. Haha) when I was about to give up. He cracks lame jokes sometimes too but hey, that's part of the charm, right? Haha. Anyway, I am grateful to have met someone like him who made me realize that I am so much better than what I thought I can be and that I can push myself to the fullest potential. I doubt he is reading this but if you are, I would like to thank you for affecting my life in such positive way :)

Because of the fact that I have changed my perspective on life completely, I found myself to be really positive about other things in life too. I have been very discipline with my health and eating habits, I've been consistent with my goals and striving to achieve them, I learned to avoid the people who bring me down constantly, I learned to take chances and not be afraid of risks and mistakes, I learned more about myself this year than I did in the previous years of my life, I taught myself to stop being a shopaholic and most important of all, I have improved my relationship with Allah and my family. Not saying I had bad relationships with them before, I am so close to my family but I felt like I wasn't good enough. Now I am still improving but Alhamdullilah, I can see that I'm on the right path in getting there. I am also trying to improve the relationships I have with everyone I know. In fact, I'm absolutely sure that I have improved my relationship with one of my best friend and my number one reader (as she always say), Putt. I have become so much closer to her this year and I enjoy being around her and talking to her. She's a gem, enough said. Oh and I know you're reading this. So hiiiiiii, baby girl! *waves*

Last year I didn't have any resolutions. My reason was that I wouldn't keep up even if I had one. But 2014 is a year of change for me. I want 2014 to be a life changing year for myself. I want to change to be a better person, inside and out. I have so many resolutions in my mind right now but I will just include some of the important ones that pops into my head.

First, I would like to stop complaining. Just about anything. I don't want to complain. Instead, I would like to take control of my own mind and think of all the obstacles and problems in the most positive way possible. 

Secondly, I want to cut off all the negative people from my life. Once and for all. The ones who always condemn me. The ones who are always being sarcastic about the things I'm passionate about like my YouTube channel or the motivational videos I always watch. I will only acknowledge people who support me and bring the positive vibes into my life.

I also would like to start saving instead of spending. After all, as Robert Kiyosaki once tweeted, "The wealthy buy luxuries last, while the poor and middle-class tend to buy luxuries first". No more drug stores or Sephora, no more new bags, no more shoes, no more accessories unless it's a necessity (I doubt a new lipstick is a necessity but whatever. Haha). 

Lastly, I hope the motivation for me to keep healthy and eat clean won't die down. I want to be active and be healthy through out my life starting from now. Hopefully!

Okay so those are my 2014 resolutions. Well, some of them. Do you have any resolutions for 2014? Do share your resolutions with me in the comment section, so we all can motivate each other to focus and achieve our goals for this new year!

Happy New Year, everyone! 

Lisa Magazine October 2013 Issue

A couple of months ago, I was approached by one of my friends who is currently working for Lisa magazine. If you don't know what Lisa is, it is a local Malaysia magazine that includes everything girls like. Fashion, beauty and solutions to life's problems, you name it! 

My friend, Alia Roslan or better known as Yaya works for the magazine and called Fara and I for an interview for their BFF issue. She said she knows Fara and I have been close since we were 9, so she thought it would be appropriate for us to be featured in the magazine and tell their readers some stories and our experiences being friends for so long. 

A couple of days ago, I bought the magazine and saw the spread of us. It was amazing!! Thank you Alia :)

Go get your copy of the October 2013 issue of Lisa magazine now if you want to read our friendship story ;)

Are You Team High Street or Team Designer?

What is life without fashion? What will happen to this world without fashion? Will you survive without fashion?

Personally, I don't think the world would be as interesting as it is without fashion. Imagine strolling down the street and all you see are sweatpants and sweatshirts every single day? Don't get me wrong, sweatpants and sweatshirts are very comfortable to wear everyday but they are not very fashionable now are they? It actually depends on the person though, what is good fashion and what is not. Fashion is very subjective. Different people have different styles all over the world and not everyone will agree on what is classy and what is trashy. You might find a chevron dress with a cut out back very appealing and classy but it might look like you're committing a fashion crime to other people. You might hink that the famous Isabel Marant sneakers are the most genius idea any designer has ever come up with but to others, they would call themselves 'fashion victims' if they're caught in those same pair of sneakers. 

That is why fashion is very subjective. You can never define fashion in only one way. 

Girls or boys, women or men they all have different view in fashion. Most of the time, you can actually see a person's personality by seeing his/her style but of course, you can't really stereotype people based on what they wear. That's not good, keep that in mind! Also, it's not good to mock people based on what they wear. Like I said, fashion is very subjective. So what might look bad to you, might look good to others. There is no reason why you should bring other people down by what they wear. So live your life and wear what you think looks good on you, not comment on others' fashion and style. I already wrote a post about my style, so if you want to read about how I define and describe my style, you can read all about it here. 

Some people look up to other people like celebrities or socialites as inspirations and as their fashion icons on what to wear. Fashion icons nowadays put together their outfits with a wide range of brands. Whether it's designers', high street brands or thrift shops, they definitely know how to put together a whole outfit without caring too much about the price tags. If you ask me, I don't mind the price tags or the name on the back of the dress. As long as it is my style and it's comfortable, I'll wear it. But of course, I won't buy anything that would burn a hole in my wallet. Or in this case, my parents' wallets. If it is worth the price, I will definitely buy it. That's why if you walk in my wardrobe, you would see dresses from thrift shops, tops from high street brands like Zara or Topshop and some of my bags are from the higher end designers like Kate Spade or Juicy Couture. My wardrobe varies in so many ways; the colors, the prices and the brands. I buy things that catch my eyes and that I (or my parents) can afford. Honestly speaking, my higher end bags are mostly bought overseas because designer bags in Malaysia are very over priced. I wouldn't even buy anything from Kate Spade here in Malaysia because one bag here costs more than 2 bags in The States, or sometimes if you go to any outlets in The States, you can even get 3 Kate Spade bags for the price of one bag here in Malaysia. I admit, I'm a crazy shopaholic but I'm not a chronic one where I'm wiling to buy a RM10,000 tote. I admit, if I have the money, I would buy 10 Chanel bags because I'm a sucker for designer brands but too bad I can't afford it. I think in a way, it is kind of a motivation to me because I know if I want to own a very expensive designer piece, I would have to study and work my ass off to reward myself with those luxurious items. So in a totally indirect way, I would be motivated to be successful in the future. But of course, that's my logic. 

As for now, I guess you can say I'm more in the middle, where I love and own a few designer pieces but at the same time, I own a lot of high street brands too.

Here I would like to share an infographic that I think would be very informative to all you fashion addicts and shopaholics out there. It compares a high street brand, Zara with a designer brand, Louis Vuitton. It shows how you can wear a RM300 Zara dress and look as classy as you would be in a RM 4,000 LV jumpsuit.

I hope this helps some of you out there. There is no right or wrong in fashion. You can wear what you think looks best on you and you can buy anything that you can afford and love. It all depends on yourself.

So, are you on Team High Street or Team Designer? Or do you call yourself in the middle, like me?

All about my hair

My long hair is my life. Well, was my life. 

In my teen years, my hair had always been long. The shortest I cut it was when I was 19, but even that wasn't even that short. It's longer than shoulder length, so that doesn't really count as 'short'. I think I have some kind of a disease where I'm scared of losing my long hair. Normal people are scared of the dentists, I'm scared of the hairstylists. That's how paranoid I am when it comes to my hair. Despite that though, I've always been bored with long hair, to be honest but I can't do anything about it, can I? Since I am really scared to even have my ends trimmed. 

I have been thinking and contemplating on cutting my hair short. Like, short short. As in, shoulder short but of course I didn't have the guts to actually do it. I was thinking and running the images of me having short hair in my mind but I never had the courage to walk into a salon. A few months back, I decided to man up and just hit the salon. So I did. 

I came out of the salon with my new hair but not satisfied. I chickened out and asked the hairstylist to cut only around 2 inches of my hair. That was more like a trim than an actual cut, I know. I was really scared okay!

Then, last weekend, I went to Pahang to visit my little brother at his boarding school. He wanted to cut his hair since it's growing and we went to the usual salon we always go to there in Pahang. I said to Mom I wanted to get a haircut too. I Googled images of celebrities with short hair and I settled with Emma Stone's hair do. It wasn't long but it wasn't that short either. I wanted something different with my hair because I seriously was getting bored with having the same long hair for like, more than 10 years, I'm not even kidding. The last time I cut it short was when I was 10. Now, I'm almost 22. How can I not be bored with it right? 

So I walked into the salon last weekend, feeling so rebellious because I decided to cut it short. After the hairstylist was done with my hair, she blow dried it and it was done. I wasn't satisfied with the outcome. Not because it didn't turn out great, but it was because I still couldn't see any difference. So, I did something really outrageous.

"Cut it short, until here", I said while making hand gestures to the hairstylist, pointing on my shoulders.

The hairstylist just grinned and asked, "Are you sure?"

I closed my eyes and nodded. "Yes".

The hairstylists took her scissor and placed it to my hair and stopped, looked at me in the mirror and asked again, "Are you really really sure about it? Because I have my scissor on your hair now..."

I thought if I think about it further, I will definitely change my mind. So I decided to just go with it and said, "I'm so sure. Just cut it now before I change my mind again." 

So..... yes. My hair is short now. 

To be frank, I actually sweat like, a lot through the whole hair cutting process because I was nervous. What if it turns out ugly? What am I going to do then?

So the first few days I wasn't really sure whether I like that new hair or not. I've been hearing a lot of comments on my new hair when I posted a picture on my Twitter. Some of them said they like it, that it looks fresh and cute on me but they are people who don't like it that much, saying they like my long hair better.

But none of that matters, right? I mean, it's my hair. So I should decide whether I like it or not. So, today, now, after 4 days of having short hair, I've decided that I actually like it. Not only it's easier to wash and style, but I think it looks okay on me.

So that's my experience cutting my hair short after more than 10 years of having long hair. It was very nerve-wrecking but definitely worth it. I needed the change and glad I went with it in the end! 

Facebook Page?

Okay, so I've been contemplating for so long on whether or not I should create my own Facebook Page.

Situation A : Create a Facebook Page

Some people would think I'm so full of myself and that I think I deserve to have my own as what they call it a "fan page".

Situation B : Don't create a Facebook Page

I realized that some of my subscribers on Youtube and followers on my blog have been adding me on my personal Facebook. Well, it's called 'personal' Facebook for a reason. I love you guys, don't get me wrong but there are creepers out there that I don't know and what if one day, the creepers pretend to be one of you guys and kidnap me??! Hahaha well, that's kind of ridiculous but hey, better to prepare than to regret it if it happens right? Anyway, I thought if I make my own page, then all of you guys that I've never met in real life can interact with me on that page.

You see my little dilemma here? 

So.......... 

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I decided to just make my own Facebook page!!!

I know some people will judge me out of their minds and say things like 'who does she think she is?' or anything relatively close to that. But! Guess what?

I don't care.

People can say whatever they want but I'm doing this for all of you out there who has been adding me on Facebook. If you want to see what's been going in my life, pictures, to be the first to read and watch the newest updates on my blog and the newest video on my channel, then you can like my Facebook page here, and we can be friends! :D 

To me, if my intentions are good, then there's nothing wrong with it. I made this page to interact with you guys better, then why not? There's no harm in that.
A little disclaimer though, before any of you be all judgmental on me, I will never think of this Facebook page as a "fan page" because well, who am I kidding? I do not and will not, in a million years, have "fans". Haha.
Also, It's just a page where you guys can share things with me and we all can interact with each other. 

So... I guess I'll see you on Facebook then?

:)

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Liebster Award!

Okay so I just knew about this Liebster Award Tag from one of my friend here on blogger, Puteri Panda. She nominated me in her blog for this award and so, I'm going to do the tag now. This is so interesting, I'm so excited! 

The Rules : 

1) List 11 facts about yourself

2) Answer 11 questions given to you

3) Create other 11 questions for the bloggers you nominated

4) Thank and link back to the blogger who nominated you in their blog

5) Nominate 5 bloggers with 200 or less followers 

6) Go to each bloggers page and inform them about the tag/award

Okay so let's start!!

11 Facts About Me 

( I promise I will list out different facts than the ones I wrote in my 50 Random Facts About Me Tag)

1) Yes, I love shopping and I can spend 10 hours in Forever 21 but I can spend legitimately 27 hours in a bookstore, especially Bookalicious

2) My car is red in color

3) I don't own any MAC products simply because I used to think MAC is not a good brand but I'll probably try their Studio Fix Foundation soon because I heard it's good

4)  I used to enjoy going to concerts but now I feel like crowds are annoying

5) I actually like wearing baju kurung and will always find a reason to wear them

6) I honestly don't like my handwriting, although I LOVE to write

7) People used to call me 'the girl with guys legs' in high school because I had huge legs. Still have them now.. but I learned to embrace it

8) I am the most difficult person to throw up. I've only threw up twice in the 22 years of my life, where I forced myself to throw up by dancing vigorously after I ate and the other time was when I stuck my toothbrush down my throat after meal ( I swear I don't do stupid things anymore, don't you worry. Hehe)

9) I'm SERIOUSLY afraid of cockroaches. I think I'm about to die just by typing the "C" word. There's a 110% that I will cry my eyes out if I see them crawling/flying anywhere near me

10) I have weird shaped arms

11) I just learned how to do the cup song in Pitch Perfect!!!

Questions from Puteri Panda :

1) Describe your style

I did a whole post about this topic the other day. I would probably say I don't really have a specific style because I always change my style depending on my mood. Sometimes I go for edgy with converse, studs and denim vests but sometimes I go all girly and sweet with a sheer top, lace, maxi dress and heels.

2) Favorite Perfume

Definitely Viva La Juicy!!

3) High heels or wedges?

I owned a lot more heels than wedges but I do love wedges as well. I'd say I love them both equally. Hehe.

4) Choose 3 colors

Red, Pink and Mint Green

5) Favorite Movie

This is still going to be Pitch Perfect!

6) Favorite Food

I'm not picky when it comes to food but I really like sushi!

7) BB Cream or Foundation? What brand?

I love my Covergirl Natureluxe Foundation. Always have, always will.

8) Samsung or iPhone? Tell me why.

iPhone because I'm using an iPhone right now? Haha. But seriously though, I've always liked Apple products compared to other brands.

9) Give me one dessert recipe without using an oven

Oreos dipped in milk? Hahaha that's how rare I use the kitchen to bake or cook.

10) What is your favorite Chatime beverage? 

Pearl Milk Tea, Strawberry Pudding Au Lait with pearls and Peach Smoothie with pearls

11) If you have 1 million, what do you do?

I will definitely give some to my parents and the rest, I will use to travel the world, buy myself a white Range Rover and buy the whole Juicy Couture collection. 

My questions :

1) Do you drink coffee? If yes, do you prefer Starbucks or Coffee Bean?

2) Name your top3 Youtubers you like to watch/bloggers you like to read.

3) What made you start blogging?

4) Biggest regret of your life?

5) If you could be anywhere in this world, where would you be?

6) Your guilty pleasure(s)?

7) Would you rather live without leggings your whole life or live without make up your whole life?

8) If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?

9) Describe your perfect guy.

10) Name one high end brand that you don't mind spending your money on.

11) Do you prefer shoes or bags? Explain why.

I tag :

Deeya

Sabrina Jasman

Qistina Ayu

Nada Rahman

Syuhada

Thank you so much Puteri Panda for nominating and tagging me! This tag is so much fun to do! :D