Who's That New Guy??!

Hey guys.

So....

Miss me?

I bet you do.

I miss you too.

Anyway I've been losing my blogging mood for so long. And this morning I woke up feeling like "hey, I miss writing and I miss my blog. I think it's time for me to update about my life."

And..... here I am. 

First thing first, I am no longer working at that awesome place I worked before. I had a really great time, gained a lot of experiences (and weight), met a lot of awesome people and learned a whole lot of things. I am really thankful that my first job after I graduate was there at C H Williams. It was such a fun experience and if I had the choice I would definitely go back there to work. However I have other plans ahead of me and I had to quit. 

Missing all these crazy people!!

I will definitely keep you guys updated about that "other" plan when I think it's the right time to tell. In the meantime, I am working with my Dad. It's definitely not my line or industry, but hey it's temporary before I figure my life out. Still gotta work to pay the bills, hence this job. Lol.

So yeah, career wise, I am still working on it. Still in progress but everything is good so far.

I'm sure some of you who are following me on Instagram and Twitter have some questions for me. Hehe because I've been receiving questions about it. So whatever I'm about to tell you, you heard it here first! Typing this makes me nervous. I'm having second thoughts about publishing something so personal about my life but I figured that since it's been so long since I abandoned my blog, I might as well make it up to you readers by being transparent with you guys. 

Okay guys, yes. I have a new guy in my life right now in case you are wondering when you saw my pictures on Instagram and all the tweets I've been RT-ing and posting. I've been through a heartache for almost 2 years and I finally found back my happiness. Trust me, these past couple of years I've been nothing but miserable. I came to a conclusion that I don't want to fall in love and I don't want to get married. I'd rather be successful and alone than living through a heartache. Well, that was what I thought. 

Until I said yes to this guy (let's just call him the new guy, for now yea? Hehe) when he asked me out. I've never said yes to any guy who asked me out after my big break up in 2013. But somehow, with this new guy, I considered. I had my doubts though, so of course like always, I went to Mom for advice. My Mom said it's okay to give it a try with this one and so, I did. Never did I expect that things will turn out this way. I enjoy his company so much that we've been spending so much time together since then. 

Now I can finally say that yes, I've moved on from the 7 years of relationship before. In case you are wondering, no I did not regret anything. I'm sure if you have been following me for quite some time, you would know who my boyfriend was. I have been with him since the first I started this blog and the memories we had are priceless. It is also not wrong to say that I am still friends with him until now. I've known him since we were 9, of course I wouldn't just forget about him. People have been asking me how did I move on. Well, let me tell you something. It wasn't easy. It took me a couple of years, after all. My tip is to be patient. That is all, seriously. There's nothing that you can do except wait as time heals everything. You can't force yourself to stop having feelings towards someone. When the feeling is there, it's there.  But have faith in yourself, that everything will work out just fine. It may be difficult, you might cry yourself to sleep every night but trust me, it will turn the other way around sooner or later. I am a living proof of that. I was having the most difficult time, I used to cry a lot, mood swings and all but look at me now. I'm happy. Everything turned out perfectly fine, but of course I don't want to jinx it so, I'll stop talking about how happy I am right now. The moment I stopped stalking and checking on my ex's social medias, that's when I know I have really moved on. Anyway, moral of the story is, to whoever asked me for tips on how I moved on, I only have one thing to say ; Be patient. 

Don't ever let a heartbreak ruin you. I didn't believe in love but I am totally smitten right now. So, just wait. God has someone better for you in the future so you don't need to rush things and jump to conclusions like I did. You can wait for the right one and remember God always knows best. He knows who is good for you and who's not. Who knows, you are facing all this because He wants you to be stronger so you'll be able to walk on your own feet before you share your love with someone else. If there's one thing I learned from the break up, it's definitely to love myself more. I didn't give myself enough credit that I deserve. I am worth more than that and now I realized that I need to learn to love myself more before I learn to love someone else. Now I truly believe in the saying "Don't find love, let the love find you" because when this new guy asked me out, I wasn't looking for a relationship. Heck, I wasn't even thinking of being attached to anyone and I actually vowed to myself to not love again. But suddenly he came into the picture and he can make me laugh at 3 am in the morning. He makes me feel all these feelings I hadn't felt for the longest time. He makes me happy, he makes me feel warm and fluffy inside, he makes me nervous in a good way and he makes me smile reading his texts everyday. I wasn't even looking but it just feels right.

Everyone has a different love story. Either you are marrying your high school sweetheart, or you're getting engaged with someone you just met for 5 months, it doesn't matter because everything happens for a reason, every individual walked into your life for a reason and God has everything planned out for us. You don't have to worry about it. Duration doesn't imply how pure your love is towards someone and how serious your relationship is. When you are in a long term relationship but don't feel happy anymore, ask yourself this : "Are you in love with the person you're in a relationship with or are you in love with the duration of the relationship and the memories you both made along the way?". It was hard for me because I was in love with all the memories we had and the 7 years we've been together. 

So guys, think.

Make sure of your own feelings before you decide on anything. It helps to really know your feelings instead of believing yourself and your heart straight away without thinking about it thoroughly. 

"You fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time."

This time, I am praying for the best.

InsyaAllah, he is the one.

Bismillah.

LDN

I am now sitting at Costa, with my Caramel Latte by my side as I'm typing this. My flight is delayed for 3 hours. Hence, this post.

If you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, you would know that I was (still am for another 3 hours) in London for a little over a week now for a business trip.

Well, honestly I was dreading this trip before. But when I got here, I feel content. Happy. Like I belong. You know that kind of feeling where you know this is the place to be? That's what I was feeling when I touched down. I've been here a couple of times before but I didn't feel this way. However, somehow this time, I feel like this is my place. I need to be here. I need to stay. But of course it's so much easier to feel things than actually doing it, you know? 

I've had a great time although it wasn't for long but I am content with how I spent my time (and money) here. Lol. My schedule was pretty packed. My colleagues and I went all over London for site visits and in total, we went to more than 40 sites all over London in just 6 days. A couple of the sites are outside of London actually and we covered all these places by public transportation and walking. North, South, West, East. You name it, we've been there. It was hell but the weather made everything better for me. I don't mind the walking as long as the weather is as pleasant as London's weather.

Everything here made me question myself. What have I been doing all these years? What have I achieved? I don't know why these questions suddenly popped out when I'm here. But they did. When I'm in the tube by myself, when I'm sitting at a coffee shop, drinking my latte and when I'm in the hot shower. I think it's probably the environment here or something else. I have no idea.

Anyway, on a lighter note, aside from the site visits, being reunited with my best friend and crazy sales over here, I also had the chance to make friends with the locals. It's amazing how these people are so nice to me despite me being a stranger and a foreigner. I told you everything is nice here. Even the people!

Well, now it's time for me to go back and face reality and think back about my plans and my future. 

P/S : I will have my outfit of the day(s) in London up on my channel soon! :))

x

Style Saturday with Ayeen : Work Outfits

Hey girlies! So I decided to start this series where I'll write about fashion every Saturday. In this first one, let's talk about formal wear for work, since I've started working in the corporate world, why not?

To be honest, I have two moods when I wake up in the morning for work. Either I go all out, going super fancy or I just pick up whatever that is in my wardrobe that doesn't need to be ironed. When I want to dress up, believe me, I will spend like an hour just to choose the perfect outfit in the morning and that ladies & gentlemen, is usually the reason why I'm late to work. 

But there are moments (more like most of the time) where I feel like.....

Literally me, most of the time, guys. Seriously. 

I used to be a morning person, I love mornings, I love waking up early. But when you live like an hour away (without traffic. With traffic, it's more like a week away..) from your office and need to wake up at 4.30am every morning to go to work...  well, you just feel like that extra hour you spend at choosing an outfit for the day is better off for you to have an extra hour of sleep. 

Now you know why I appreciate and need my morning coffee so bad. I'm not being a whiny little brat who goes like "Oh I can't live without coffee" on Twitter for nothing, okay?

Anyway, back to the topic.

These are some of the outfits I've worn to the office.

Dress from Sugar & Spice, Shoes from H&M

Tank top from H&M, Hot Pink Blazer from H&M, Black Pencil Skirt from Sugar & Spice, Heels from Kiss & Tell, Bag from H&M

Dress from Asos, Cardigan from MNG, Bag from Aldo, Necklace from GM Klang

Dress from H&M, Blazer from Juicy Couture, Bag from Brings @ Isetan

Peplum Top from F Block, Pencil Skirt from Brands Outlet, Bag from a thrift store

Dress from Minimal, Belt from Primark, Necklace from GM Klang, Bag from Balenciaga

Top was a gift, Belt from Cosmax, Skirt from Cotton On, Bag from Kate Spade

Dress from F&F for Tesco, Bag from Brings @ Isetan, Necklace was a gift

Dress from a random stall in Kuching, Sarawak, Blazer from my Mom's closet 

Dress from a random store in Singapore, Bag from Balenciaga, Laptop Bag from Juicy Couture

Top from Charlotte Russe, Belt from Primark, Gray Pants from Minimal, Bag from Juicy Couture

Top from Nile.com, Patterned Pants from H&M, Bag from Juicy Couture

Dress from Minimal, Belt from Primark, Necklace from Lovisa, Heels from Dollz, Bag from Juicy Couture

Dress from Double Woot, Earrings from Forever 21, Charm Bracelet from Juicy Couture

Dress from Double Woot, Bag from Furla, Shoes from Kiss & Tell

Top from Brands Outlet, Pencil Skirt from Sugar & Spice

Top from H&M, Skirt from Sugar & Spice

Dress from thrift store, belt from Cosmax

Black top (worn inside) from Minimal, Blazer from Juicy Couture, Skirt from H&M, Shoes from Gossips

If you didn't notice the obvious, let me point it out for you. Most of my outfit are skirts and dresses. Yes, I prefer wearing skirts or dresses to work because it's easier to.... pee? Lol, nah. I mean, that's one of the reasons, but in all seriousness, I think skirts and dresses seem more formal. Maybe it's just me, I don't know. 

If you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, chances are you have seen me in this dress a gazillion times. Yes, this is my perfect go-to dress. 

No, not because it's feminine and flowery or because the cutting is nice. Although those are some of the reasons why I bought it in the first place. But you know what's so great about this dress? 

It's an easy dress. 

It's a dress where I can be as lazy as a sloth but look like I put some effort to get ready in the morning. The cutting, the pattern, the flare of the skirt. Everything about this dress, I love. 

One of my colleagues once said this :

"I know you're on your usual lazy mood today."

So I asked her, "What makes you say that?"

Her answer?

"Easy. Because you're wearing this dress. Your lazy-day-dress."

All I can do was just nod because she was right.

Do you have any lazy outfits too? Let me know in the comment below!

I'm facing life crisis??

Hello guys.

As you all know I haven't been a really good blogger or vlogger lately. And by lately I mean, this past one year. I'm sorry. I truly am. I really love being on the Internet it's just that I don't have time for it these days. Usually when I was about to blog something on my computer, an email comes in.

Ahhhh, email from a colleague. 

Or the developer.

Or a client.

I need to always reply these emails as soon as I can. So by the time I finished replying all these emails, I will either be sleepy or I completely forgot my main purpose when I turned on my computer.  The fact that I'm dealing with people in London doesn't help either as the time difference means they start working as I am about to go to bed. 

So yes. That's my life now. 

I spend most of my time stressing and worrying about closing deals, agreements, contracts and everything else except writing a blog post or making a video. And honestly? I hate it. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate my job. I just hate how it drives me away from what I love doing the most; being on the Internet, typing away and talking in front of the camera. I want to be able to have the time to do my job and be on the Internet. But my job requires me to work on weekends as well, so tough luck, man.

I've been stressing over this for a little over a while now and I have not voice this out because I feel bad for complaining. I don't want to complain. I don't want to be the whiny brat because it's not even the job at all, I don't think. It's just my feelings. And I'm bad at expressing my feelings. Like, literally really bad at it. So right now I'm trying to figure this out. I need to find myself. I need to build my career based on my passion, not based on the money. Because I don't think you will ever be successful if you do something for the money instead of your love and compassion towards the things you do. 

So please dear readers/viewers, please bear with me while I figure my life out and how am I going around this. But know this; I won't give up blogging and Youtube. Never. 

If you have any comforting words for me or any advises, just shoot them to me. Email me, tweet me, comment below. Anything. I will be sure to read them.

Oh! And thank you to those who have been tweeting, commenting on my pictures on Instagram, emailing me asking me to blog and film videos again. I miss you guys too!!! I will start again. Pretty soon, InsyaAllah. 

Okay fun's time over. Back to work now.

Hello, Real Life!

When you were in primary school or high school, have you ever expected your life is going to turn out exactly like how it has turned out right now? Is the life you're living now the life you expected to live from the start? Is the life you're living now is the life you wished to live since you were younger?

I'm pretty sure 99% of the answers will be a big fat NO.

As I grew older, I realized that not everything will turn out as planned or as expected. Planning and dreaming about the future seems so easy to do but to make everything you dreamed of actually happen.... Not so. That's why I have given up planning the future so precisely because I know it won't turn out like I want it to be. I just focus on my goals now and aiming to achieve it instead of having everything mapped out in front of me. After all, life is an adventure. It's good to have life goals and strategies to achieve them but you can't really control everything and everyone in your life.

I turned 23 last Saturday and man, do I feel old. It might not sound as bad to some of you but to me, 23 is an age where I can announce to the world that I am officially "old". What more when I have actually started working. That certainly make me feel older. Talking about work, it had never crossed my mind that I will be in the real estate industry. Let me repeat. N-E-V-E-R. As a little kid, I never really dreamed of being the doctor, the engineer or the lawyer like most of kids my age wanted to be. Believe it or not, every time people ask me what I want to be when I grow up. My answer was "A Cashier". Reason? Simply because I love plastics and paper bags. Not to mention the cash counters/machines. I've always loved and dreamed to be a cashier at any stores so I can play with the cash machines. My love for the cash machine was so true that my Dad bought me a white and pink Barbie cash machine so I can play and live my 'dream' to be a cashier. LOL. I sure dream big, don't I? Hahahaha.

Okay you can stop laughing at me now.

As I grew, my dream career changed. When I was in the first half of my high school years, I was determined and sure that I want to be a teacher. I want to teach English, just like my Mom. That was when I started writing on my blog because I know it will improve my English if I start writing. That was also when I discovered that I really love writing. I started my own "book". Not like a proper book for everyone to read, of course. Just something I write, sort of like a novel but a personal one. No, it's not a journal or a diary or anything like that, in case you're wondering. I didn't write about my life but I imagine being someone else and created the whole story myself. I really fell in love with writing because it's something that I know I'm in control and I'm in charge of the whole story line. I can write whatever crap that comes to mind and it's okay because I invented the story. I am in charge of the characters. I am the story.

But then after a while, I thought that I don't want to be a teacher because it's hard to have that big responsibility of teaching people's children and making sure the knowledge you pass on to the students are the best you can give. Being a teacher is hard work, believe me. Most people I know look at teachers like they are nothing but I have lived with a teacher all my life. Trust me when I say, they are the ones who always get underestimation from people. To me, being a teacher is the sincerest job anyone could be and I will always respect teachers as without teachers, we wouldn't even know how to count to 10, we wouldn't even know how to spell "Apple" for the first time and we wouldn't even know the history. I have seen my Mom get upset and worried whenever her students did very bad in their tests. I have also seen my Mom got so excited to think of something for her students to learn a different way by teaching them outdoors. There was this one time, she asked her students to bring their own food and drinks from home for a 'study picnic' under the tree at school. I told her, "how come my teachers have never done this for us when I was in primary?". Seeing my Mom being a teacher made me want to be a teacher too, so that was why I applied to be a French language teacher after I graduated high school. I did well for the interview but my heart told me that wasn't it. That career is not the path I want to take. So I accepted the offer from University of Malaya instead, to do a one year foundation in Built Environment. At that time, I knew it was a risk to take because if I fail, I would have to start all over again from Diploma and I will be behind everyone else in my batch. Also, it wasn't like I know what "Built Environment" means at that time. I just went with the flow. After I learned what Built Environment is all about, I was aiming to be an Architect. I couldn't be so sure because I was in the University, so I thought... "hey, I'm 18 and I'm in college. I don't think I will every change my ambition again." Well, guess what?

It changed. Again.

After passing my Foundation, Alhamdulillah, I got accepted in University of Malaya for my Degree as well. During my first year in Real Estate, I realized I gravitate more towards a few subjects like Law, Marketing & Sales. I hated (and still hate) subjects like Valuation, Investments or Construction.

Fast forward four years, I am now done with my Degree in Real Estate and I am working now. In Agency & Marketing Department at a very awesome Real Estate company and I couldn't be more blessed. I am so happy and honored to be offered a job there even before I finished my internship. All those 4 years of Degree are definitely worth it because look at where it got me. I am 23 and turning into a new chapter in my life. I know this part of my life will be the hardest because this is when I have the responsibility towards my own life, my work, my achievements and a lot of other things too. This is the part where my parents can let go of me financially and in other aspects too for me to think what's best for myself and not be too dependant on them. Another step towards real life and I'm going to be honest with you, I'm nervous and scared as hell because this is the beginning of my real life.

Something that my Mom said on the night of my birthday made me cry :

"Please stop growing up, baby. Stop here. I don't want you to grow up anymore."

I just hugged her and told her that as much as I don't want to grow up-too, this is the time when I need to grow up and learn. It's time for me to take care of her and Dad instead of the other way around.

So, guys. Wish me luck on this new journey of mine.

Bismilahirrahmannirahim.

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All I wanna do is sleep

I have been crazy busy these past couple of months. I'm not even kidding. I work literally every single day for the past two months. Yes, even on weekends. I think I haven't even told you about my work. 

Okay basically I started my internship in February this year and I was rewarded some kind of award for special intern scheme. After I finished my intern, the company offered me a permanent job. Without the 3 months probation period other people have to go through. Alhamdulillah, I was flattered, of course. So now I am the Project Marketing Executive for International Properties in my company. Oh if you are wondering, I am a Real Estate major and the company I'm working at is a Real Estate company (duh?). 

Anyway, I have been busy with exhibitions and launches every day including weekends and I travelled to East Malaysia for one week for the roadshow as well. I was there during the first day of Ramadhan, which was... an experience for me. The first day of Puasa was the last day we were there. Usually exhibitions end at 7pm and with me being in Kuching at that time, Maghrib is earlier that West Malaysia. And my flight was at 9pm which means we had to dismantle the panels and pack the brochures and stuff and rush to the airport at 7.30pm. My muslim colleagues and I drank one sip of bad coffee at the hotel, rushed to the surau to pray and rushed to the airport with our huge luggages full with hard covered brochures. 

So if you were at the Kuching International Airport that Sunday night and saw three girls wearing black blazers, skirts and heels, running with huge luggages, sweating and panting. Yea, that was definitely us.

There was also this one time in KL, we were still in the exhibition hall and we had to drink plain water for iftar. But because we were so desperate for some flavor, we actually put sugar in the plain water. That's just so sad right? Haha.

After two months of working every day, I decided to take two days off work. So yes, I am on leave today! What are my plans you ask? Well, sleep. And sleep. And sleep. And......... sleep. I miss being lazy. I miss being unproductive. I miss proper sleep. I miss sleeping more than 4 hours. So that's what I'm going to do today and you can't judge me. Hehe.

I went for a mani/pedi/scrub session this morning and it felt so good to just relax and pamper myself after those crazy two months. I felt like i deserve the treatment and tomorrow will be spa day! I can't wait!

By the way, here's a picture of us on the plane on the way back to West Malaysia. 

We looked like we weren't tired at all.

Happy and all smiles. 

But you know when people say "looks can be deceiving"?

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Working girl

I've been MIA because I was busy planning Zahir's birthday party. It wasn't a big one, just a private, intimate surprise party among family and close friends. I will definitely update about the party once I receive all the photos from Fara and Razin. For now...

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My own desk at my new office! After almost 2 months of holidays, I got bored just staying home and not making money. So I decided to take up on my Dad's offer to work at his office. I've never worked in an office before, so the environment is so different. But I don't feel left out or awkward because we all know each other here. I figured, why stay home and be a couch potato when I can sit in an office with full blast centralised air conditioner and work (blog and shopping online too at the same time. Hehe) and make money by the end of every month?

This is my first day and so far everything's good. All I have to do is type letters to banks, post out and stamped letters. I have another 5 more hours to go for today. So wish me luck!

Benefit

I've been lazy. Yet again. I have reasons though. During the one week of Chinese New Year holidays, I worked. Yes, you heard me. I WORKED. For one whole week, without any off day. I don't know what had gotten into me but since Benefit just opened in Sunway Pyramid, I figured, why not? Some of you might know that I've worked with Benefit for about a month or so during my break before I started my Degree. I worked at Benefit in Metrojaya in Midvalley. Yes, I traveled that far and went through the killer traffics just to get to work. So when Benefit opened in Sunway, which is 100th times nearer to my house, I went for it. The manager, James, knows I've worked with benefit before so he called me and agreed to let me work.

So, the night before I started working, I was so lazy and cursed at myself silently for putting myself into that situation. To dread myself everyday to go to work and all. Turned out, the first day wasn't that bad. The staffs and supervisor in Sunway were more fun and friendlier than the ones who worked in Midvalley. So I started to enjoy my work!

I thought I've forgotten everything about the products and how to treat the customers but hey, I did not. I won't say I did so good, but at least I know what to do every time a customer asked me to apply Benetint on their cheeks or when a customer asked me to do smokey eyes on her or what shade of two-way-cake is suitable for their skin. And proud to say, I still remember their prices. Though I'm sure the reason why I remember the prices is because I'm actually using Benefit's products :p

My supervisor is a Chinese, so she took a week off. And guess who she put in charge of the counter while she was away celebrating Chinese New Year? Yes, you've guessed it. Me! There were four of us working the whole week and the three girls just started working with Benefit. So they were not really familiar with the products and the prices. When there wasn't any customer, I taught them a little about the products, the prices, what does the make up base does, what's the function of That Gal and a bunch of other stuffs. I had so much fun with them working that I didn't want to stop on my last day. They always crack me up with stupid and dirty jokes!

I think I'm going to consider working again during my 5 months of holidays this mid year :)

Wow

As you can already see, I changed my blog skin. I'm starting to get a little bored with the previous one. So anyways, God forgive me for not updating yesterday. I swear I did on my laptop but then realised Daddy brought the broadband with him and I'm too lazy to ask my brother the password for the wireless. Work yesterday was bored like usual. Two of Benefit's supervisors came and only two minutes with them I felt like burning them in hell. I hate the look on their faces, the way they talk, the way they do everything is just plain annoying. I ignore them completely and I don't freaking care what they want to say. Hell, I don't even care if they want to fire me from that lame job because I did well on the sales yesterday, thankyouverymuch. I hope they won't be there tomorrow, fingers crossed. Tailed Mom to school this morning and came back with a tired face plastered. Changed without showering and dozed off in the living room until the moon came up. I think today's world's tiring day because everyone seems pretty gloomy throughout the day. Even the kids were not energetic for the dance training and I had to keep on reminding them to live up. Maybe everyone woke up today and realised life is pathetic or maybe some of them kick start their days with bad hair days.
Work again tomorrow and gosh, I don't even know what to wear. I'll have to raid my closet for black clothes later then. It's so sad that I have to do something I hate for these three days.

Mom, my brother and I argued about the kid that was shot by a cop. I personally think that cop is stupid. Better yet, almost all of the cops are plain stupid and I bet each and everyone of them is suffering from a family dilemma and they tend to release their stress by acting like a cow. Law stated that a cop can't pull the triger unless if they were being shot at. But in this case, that kid was only 15years young and probably afraid because he didn't own a driver's license while the cop has a mind of a 3years old. I told you I hate cops especially the narrow minded ones in Malaysia. They need to at least be educated and please, dunderheads, learn how to open up your mind. Don't think you're a cop, you can be an asshole. I'm starting to get suspicious that cops don't have brains. I bet the main rules and regulations on the application form to be a cop is 'you can't have a brain to be a police.' Pardon my french, but I'm just speaking up my mind.

Unlucky perhaps ?

Do you know how it feels like when you're barely half an hour late for work but when you're late, the person in charge or the floor executive to be exact, comes to the store out of nowhere just to check ? Yeap that was how I felt this morning. Yes I've been late to work a few times but not as late as today. I figured that its no biggie that Im late today, not everyday. So I took my own sweet time, asked daddy to stop for breakfast and stuffs. At 9.45am, Apeng called. I picked up the phone calmly, knowing there's nothing to be scared of. But when Apeng's voice sounded so urgent saying or ordering, you can say, me to be faster, I knew something is happening. And yes, Eileen, the floor Exec chose this day, the day I thought its okay to be late, to come and check the store. Wow, nice timing. I cursed silently but then I rushed and yes, she scolded me when I arrived. I know that is was really my fault for coming late, so I said sorry and I lied that I took the bus so I had to wait for the bus and stuffs when really, actually I was enjoying my breakfast. But she doesnt have to know that, does she ? Lol. So anyway, I sweat like a pig the first couple hours. I did the house keeping for the whole store alone. Swept the floor, cleaned the massive and tall glass windows and mirrors, scan the price tag for every single merchandise, cleaned the store room, took out the rubbish. I dont mind doing all the works, really because its fun instead of doing nothing like we always do. But Eileen followed me and kept lecturing me when I was doing those works. I couldnt stand her but I didnt say that to her face, obvie, though I really wanted to. But I didnt have the guts to. So anyway I had full shift and I couldn't be more tired that I am right now.

I cant wait for my salary to be banked in. I've listed what I want to buy with that money. Lol ;p

I think its my queue to go now when my eyes are half closed. So gonna hit the sacks now. Night

My first paycheck!

Work has been keeping me pretty busy. I'm having a fever, flu and sore throat which is driving me insane as I still have to work though I don't have the energy to stand up still on my feet. I ate a pack of biscuit and a roti canai the whole day and I don't even feel hungry. Wow, amazing since I always eat a lot.

I had to swipe, mop, clean the shop when I showed up late today at work. I received my first pay check today!! And I think the amount is, well, I dont know. Quite satisfying, I guess. Then again, knowing me, nothing is ever enough :p

Officially

Yeah, I officially got the job when Calvin Klein's HR, Samantha called me at 10am in the morning and asked me whether I can start Sunday. After saying yes, she said I have to be there on Sunday at 9.30, sharp as nails as she is the one who's serious about punctuality. Well, as nervous as I was talking to Samantha, I'm also really excited to start working. Yes, it probably mean I can't spend that much time with Zhr any more since I only can have one off day. And that one day, I would have to settle up my driving courses. Shoot. I totally forgot about the driving lesson I have to attend! So, I have to figure out something here, obvie. I hope they don't clash, somehow. So anyway, I text-ed Mom and Zhr as soon as I got off the phone with Samantha to tell them the good news!! Well, I did a lot of chores today, sweating myself up like a pig.

I watched I do (but) I dont on Hallmark just now. Denise Richards was amazing. I've been a fan since watching her reality show, Its Complicated, she looks good even she gained some extra pounds. She still is pretty.

I think Im gonna take a nap. Im tired. Arriderverci ! (:

Employed

Employed ? Nahh not yet. So I guess I should start form Tuesday where Zhr and I went to Pyramid to hunt for jobs. I applied at several stores. Calvin Klein, La Senza, Esprit, Polo and several others. We thought we could stall some time to watch Four Christmases at the cinema. While I was in the cinema, CK called and told me I got it ! Well well, don't get too excited, my friend. Not the job, you silly. I got an interview with the HR Thursday. Which was today. It was nerve-wrecking ! They called and asked me to be there before 3pm. I arrived there at 2.30pm with Mom and my little brother for support. When I talked to the guy behind the counter that I was there for the interview, he said I'll have to wait for the HR to call me. I was really nervous that I was shivering literally. So anyway, we went around Pyramid, hunting for a birthday present for little Awisy who's turning 3 this 20th (: But we found nothing and finally CK called and said the HR was there. So I rushed there and I met the HR. A Chinese tall woman wearing purple, with purple eye shadow with a frown on her face. Okaaayy I was really scared that I was not only shivering but my knees went jell-o. She asked me to sit on the bench in front of CK and she started with her questions. She did smile a few times which was a relief. Guess what, the interview started off kind of awkward but eventually I relaxed a little and just be myself. It went pretty well. She said she's going to call me later on but its already 11 something and I haven't receive any calls from her. Ohhh well. She will probably call tomorrow ? Or maybe I screwed up. Sighh.

Went back and changed my clothes. Went straight to face my computer and watch OC. I watched OC Season 2 marathon on V Channel the other day and somehow I felt like its been ages since I last watch it. So the next thing I know I've been spending all day sitting in front of my computer watching OC from the early season till the last one on dvd for the 9781362930000 times. Yeah. I've never got sick of it. So anyway, I was watching OC for half an hour before I got tired and sleepy. I off the computer and went to the kitchen to wish my family good night and saw Nina was eating. And I couldn't resist. So I ate. I've been eating a lot nowadays. I don't know why. And for the record, I ate a lot when I went out with Zhr the other day. Nasi lemak sambal sotong for lunch. Sushi King at 7pm. Fried maggi, fried rice and cheese naan at midnight. Wow thats a lot. Like really. Sigh -___-

I dont miss school, not yet

Abang and I had to go send Nina off to school. The first day of school and I have never been so satisfied in my life. This feeling I have inside me when I stepped in that school, its indescribable. I love it ! Seeing all those little kids standing inside school wearing that pathetic white and blue uniforms. I was happy to leave but I feel somewhat, old ? Haha who cares ? As long as I dont have to wake up early in the morning, face the dramas at school and face the books. So anyway, I went to the bookshop to take the booklist for my sister. Then went to the canteen with Abang. Had a cup of strawberry dadih. Yes, I hate to admit, though I dont miss school, I sure miss the food there. Their fried rice is the best ! After eating, I went to meet up with my several favourite teachers to say hey and went to Nina's class. After settling some stuffs, Abang and I went to the primary school. Fetched my little brother and went back home. Window shopped online. Found nothing interesting. Wait, I did found something I reallllly want. Like I want it soooooo badly but its waayyy to pricey because its designer's. Marc Jacobs is seriously the most brilliant human being ever. His designs are all sooo, like, wow ! But why do they cost thousands ? Sighh. I found alot of things I want from Marc Jacobs but a bag realllllyyy caught my eyes. Its from Chloe. Ohmyy.

I asked mommy if I can go hunt for jobs and she said yes. She said why dont you just go tomorrow ? And I was like, yeahh why not ? So yeah, asked Zhr to come with me. Thought about getting any job at Parade but then mommy said she wants me to work at Pyramid. So yeahh, anywhere will do for me (:

I WANT THIS REALLY BAD ! GAHH